journeying beantown with a mobile.

Goodbye Cali. Hello, Beantown.

Boston University (BU)

Chinatown. MILK TEA across the street!

I fall for you, Boston.

Copley Square (?)

Lord Jesus, You are so far away from me. 

really, how does it feel like to have a special someone? 

who what? time?

:) 

i want to stop time, so i can fly back home and spend time with my family, relatives, & friends.

i want to stop time, so i have more time to study for my GRE. 

i want to stop time, so i can spend time with my friends who flew to visit me.

i want to stop time, so i can thoroughly take care of new ones by spending time with them. 

i want to stop time, so i have the chance (finally) to reply to all my mails and fb wall posts.

i want to stop time, so i can muse on His word and be prepared for the training. 

i want to stop time, so i can exercise ): 

i want to stop time, so i can cook a decent meal. 

i want to stop time, so i have more time to talk on the phone. 

i want to stop time, so i can take my time at the grocery store and run my errands.

i want to stop time, so i can take a walk at the park opposite my house. 

i want to stop time, so i can daydream on rainy days. 

i want to stop time, so i have more time to apply for grad schools. 

i want to stop time, so i can travel to new york and ice skate outdoors with the tall buildings surround. 

i want to stop time, so i can catch up on my GRE vocabulary. 

i want to stop time, so i can help my friends with their love problems ): 

i want to stop time, so i can bring my new one to eat beef noodles ): 

i want to stop time, so i won't be easily frustrated over LA traffic. 

i want to stop time, so i can go to magic mountain.

i want to stop time, so i can short term. 

i want to stop time, so i can do my laundry :x 

i want to stop time, so i can sell my clothes! 

i want to stop time, so i can buy milk tea :)

i want to stop time, so i can take a longer time in shower.

i want to stop time, so i can snooze when my alarm rings.

i want to stop time, so i won't be anxious over the next hour. 

i want to stop time, so i wouldn't have 'wasted' 10 minutes of my time typing why i want to stop time :P 

my point is: i want to stop time.

Parallels.

smite. spoon. moon. boom. spam. rock. jam. sam. bam. pan. butter. paint. pane. pond. shiggles. bracket. colon. coma. period. dotty. quote. hax. pro. prone. hax. HAX. #. thong. throng. rust. rust is good. sun. caps. shift. haru. moose. moss. bacteria. paul. frank. thissle. thorp. hat. tap. thunder. prowl. yak. yam. lamb. yacht. sea urchin. light. saber. yoda. smiggle. dumbledore. selina. harry. smug. pokemon. charm. mander. bulb. squirt. squirtle. pika. jiggly puff. mug. onix. vulpix. goldeen. starmie. ash. wisp. trash. wire. paran. anchor. gold. boar. boat. sugar. sucrose. syrup. tut. hut. pound. ponds. chased. bank? chase. stab. stand. staple. screwdriver. wood. saw. staple. stable. strap. belt. wheel. antenna. umbrella. pantsy. pants. pier. deer. peak. teeth. twig. creek. seed. tick. tock. toad. streak. jig. jiggolo. pig. gigogolo. eek. geek. heat. fever. leak. water. drop. bomb. velocity. physics. finite. math. junction. road. function. broad. way. solid. liquid. gas. blind. deaf. mute. disabled. ill. sick. fatal. death. life. ressurected. ascension. redemption. glasses. spectacles. frame. lenses. lens. gland. amoeba. cell. myth. pan's labyrinth. salute. soldier. shift. money. spit. saliva. bacteria. trail mix. magaruita. jerk. i know. crog. crocks. crop. prawl. cone. compass! onesemus. rhema. casette. tape. spade. kate. bade. beige. zion. soy bean. soy. joy. boy. KOI. puma. pyu. poo. moo. goose. miu. mew. chew. gum. cotton. miu. miu. MIU.

the end for today.

omg debora sutjiawang. 

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.

CAN YOU CALL ME PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

): 

21.

i don't know why, but i always make a big deal of my birthday ): 

i know, it's bad. so unhealthy, so ungodly, so worldly, so-shldn't-be. 

but i can't go by the days before my birthday not knowing what fun things i'm going to do that day, and not having things planned for me to look forward to something.

ew. i'm such a spoilt brat. 

but you probably know that by now already. 

haha. even as i'm writing this, i'm feeling so ... dots. lol. it's so childish and immature of me to worry about such insignificant matter. 

but why 偏偏 i still let these thoughts preoccupy me? 

haha. is it just me, or the fact that.. i'm turning TWENTYONE. 

actually, it's just satan. 

so what do people do when they turn 21? 

duh. they drink. 

but i'm not like every person who gets pleasure and satisfaction in taking shots of alcohol ):

so what if i'm 21? 

boo. the biggest reason why i won't drink is because i hate destroying my body. 

i want my liver to function even when i'm on my death bed. 

and i can't ever give way for 'fetal something syndrome' for my baby in the future! 

that's how important my health is. 

even though there are so many times i could not help it but gave in to chips and cheetos ):

haha. you must be snickering right now, thinking how ridiculous i am for being me. 

well, you're right, so i won't argue. 

seriously, my days of being TWEN-TEEN is almost over. 

boo-hau to the cruel, unprotected, harsh reality in the adult world.

yet hooray to a step closer to finding love, career, children, and God. 

i always say that huh? but until now, i haven't even experienced what it is to be loved by a man. 

seems like every friend i have is either married, engaged, or seeing someone. or the very least, talking to someone (they like). 

and me? 

i was told by God to be obedient and wait "a little longer".

well, you know how God works with his time. 

it's different from our measure of time!

God's "a little longer", is Cindy's "eternity future". 

This is how miscommunication occurs between God and I-- The lack of trust, faith, and not believing. 

In fact, that 3 things are probably the root of all problems between and among people. 

anyhow, God wants me to wait a tat bit longer. 

but He doesn't know how i yearn so much for courtship. 

): 

boo. 

by the time "the time comes", everything is so rushed that there isn't a necessity for courtship because usually in the church life u don't need to date. so i'd probably be off married to some brother after spending 3 weeks of starbucks. and if i'm lucky, another week at coffee bean. 

oh wells. all these anxiety and all wouldn't at all matter no more after i faithfully go through my 2 years of bible school. because at then, these things would no longer be my concern or focus.

what exactly am i beating about the bush about? 

oh. just random. but. is it really really really really abnormal to admire someone for so long?

is it really really a huge unforgiveable, disgusting crime to like someone who barely knows of your existence? ):

you know who i'm talking about. 

but it's really inevitable that he pops in my mind so very often at very random times. 

yes, i should pray. 

but do you think because we are obviously from different planets, so i should give that teeny bit of hope up? ): 

boo. 

if there's one thing i want for my 21'st birthday, is for him to wish me a happy birthday..